dirty word

this has been the worst summer of my ateneo life. my past two summers actually managed to be fun (yes, despite belen and his erratic answers to quizzes. i will never forgive you for that B though.) and provided an ample amount of free time. i hardly have free time. or at least i don't think i have. not during weekdays while the sun is still up. aside from classes that sometimes take the whole day, there are always a bunch of mtgs to attend to, and errands to do. and still i consider myself a lazy bum.

despite the knowledge that there are important things to be done, i always manage to sleep my nights away, and very soundly at that. will to power, that's what i need, as someone once (or twice) told me. argh!

doing my best seems one of the most difficult things to do lately. and the funny part is, i know exactly what i have to accomplish and why i have to do it.

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elections are coming up very soon, and i still don't know who to vote for. why some people actually want to vote for ping lacson, please enlighten me. anyhow my dad told me he was voting for trillianes, the guy involved in the coup, and when i asked him why, he said that he was a symbol of anti-corrruption or of anti-government or something like that. i was surprised he even considered the guy but i kind of got his point.

one of the main reasons i'm not even sure who to vote for at this point is that everybody seems dubious. i mean you go with team unity and there's gloria. the gloria with the pig of a corrupt husband, her phone pal garci, and angelo reyes as denr secretary (what's srong with you woman? why him of all people?!). and then you go to the opposition and there's erap! the erap we ousted a few years back with his midnight cabinet and mistresses' houses. and then when you try to examine the candidates themselves, you have to be able to see the discrepancy between their claims and what they've actually done. unfortunately, a lazy bum like me doesn't have time to do this.

doesn't the church have any manual for us or something? i think they have. speaking of manuals, my dad told me the comelec should actually have distributed their manuals to the voters. he got one. yeah, like that's really going to happen.

argh, politics is just so complicated and dirty. no wonder so many people don't believe in it anymore. the whole thing is structurally disordered. it wouldn't be half as bad if everyone was well-off but we are a third world country, with poor people actually starving! hopeless... but we can never be in a state of hopelessness. as long as we're alive, there would always be hope. (no marcel pls).

bow.