free me from negativity

I have reasons to be pissed off today. Actually, three similar connected reasons. But I am choosing not to be. I am choosing instead to work even harder, challenge myself, and push my limits. Maybe through this, I may become the person I have always wanted to be. And then, those three reasons may just be among the greatest opportunities presented to me.

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Kudos to Yan-Yan for fixing my laptop, which I'm using as of this moment. Yey! Clap, clap. Thanks friend. :)

I want to look like her in this photo!

Anna Theresa Licaros looks beautiful in this picture. Hot too. Haha. I don't mean to sound lesbian or something, ew, but I am an admirer of beauty. When I saw this photo I just couldn't resist posting it because although I admit this kind of beauty isn't one-of-a-kind, it's the kind I would want to have. Asa. I mean she really does look Filipina, and I so loove her skin color. Hay. Someday.

up and running

I haven't had and still don't have personal access to the net. Drat.

Anyhow, because of Pau's very encouraging post (thanks pau, you're the best!), I have willed to pull myself together and put my life back into place. As Gerald just told me a while ago, you've got to have a sense of urgency early on when things aren't really urgent yet or else the circumstances will force to have this sence of urgency themselves. Starting this second, I'm officially shifting to supergirl mode again. Haha.

On to other things:

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I went to Odyssey-Gateway the other day and was browsing through some VCDs. This is a funny synopsis I read and I knew I had to copy all this in my phone:
Leung Chiu Wei and Willy were cartoonists. One day when they were on the way to office, they knocked down a lady-ghost Joey Wong. Joey's spirit was thus thrown into the human world. Joey knew nothing as it was the first time she came to a mundane of environment. At this time she met another demoness - Deanie Yip. Yip and her son were sentenced to death by village people because of adultery. Yip didn't do it but nobody believed her. Yip's only hope was to make her son revive from death. Thus when Yip met Willy, she selfishly kept herself and her son inspired by Willy's human spirit. She also intended to hurt Wei the same as well. Since Joey had fallen in love with Wei, she helped Wei to get away from Yip. Joey encouraged Wei to become a good cartoonist. Wei getting more and more famous. Joey became weaker and weaker being hurt by Wei's flourishing human vitality. Wei and Joey in fact were lovers in their previous lives. They were bound to be lovers again.

I got confused halfway through reading it. This is from an Asian (HK, Taiwanese, Japanese, not sure which exactly) movie entitled Fantasy Romance.

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During the same afternoon, I was at Farmers' Mall and it was raining very hard. While Gerald and I were walking along, we saw that people were watching something at the ground floor from the rink which all malls have at the middle. We thought there was a show or something. Turns out that the bottom floor was already being flooded and the people manning the stalls there were scrambling to save their goods. I was surprised that a mall, even a cheap one (haha snob), was prone to floods. Those tenants better get discounts on their rents.

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Later that afternoon, we were going to go home through the LRT. But because it rained earlier, there was a slight delay in the coming of the train according to the girl over the loudspeaker. Slight? How about super-duper. We were already waiting for 40 minutes or so. Anyway, I was regretting my decision to take the LRT instead of the jeepney, when a completely empty train came but from the opposite direction. Naturally, people immediately rushed forward ready to board. However, the doors remained closed. I thought that we were being given false hopes and that this train wasn't meant for us when Gerald realized the driver had to go to the opposite end so he could drive in the right direction. Yay! Finally, the doos did open and we easily got a seat. I find it hard to explain but I felt exhilarated upon seating down. I wanted to jump up and down but I had to content myself with just grinning from ear to ear. I just felt that it was so amazing that when we were nearing despair, this train from the opposite end came to rescue us out of the blue. The whole thing was like salvation, as in God's, totally unexpected and oh so full of joy. Thank you God. :)

life's a bitch sometimes

5 signs that say your life is a mess:

1. your laundry's been piling up for over a couple of weeks
2. you get pissed off when your parents check up on you because you know you haven't been doing well lately
3. you are running very low on cash, so much that you might have to eat out of cans for quite some time to survive
4. you say shit everytime you get reminded of things you're supposed to do but don't really want to start on just yet
5. you're bedroom's all cluttered and messy

yep, i'm in trouble. i've always found myself stuck in a glitch every so often it's a wonder i've never really learned. i guess i'm just too slow. every day, i feel like life is trying to pull the rug off my feet that i have to run and rush just to keep up. i feel like i'm missing half of my life with all this rushing and keeping up. damn.

Your Heart Today

Your Heart Today

(M. Francisco, SJ)

Where there is fear I can allay
Where there is pain I can heal
Where there are wounds I can bind
And hunger I can fill

REFRAIN:
Lord, grant me courage
Lord, grant me strength
Grant me compassion
That I may be Your heart today

Where there is hate I can confront
Where there are yokes I can release
Where there are captives I can free
And anger I can appease (REFRAIN)

BRIDGE:
When comes the day I dread
To see our broken world
Compel me from my cell grown cold
That Your people I may behold

Where there is fear I can allay
Where there is pain I can heal
Where there are wounds I can bind
And hunger I can fill (REFRAIN)

CODA:
And when I've done all that I could
Yet there are hearts I cannot move
Lord, give me hope
That I may be Your heart today

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Saw a nice blog entry relevant to the topic. I hope I don't seem like a stalker. haha
Scroll down to the bottom. If it can relate to it, you're on the right track. :)

revolution!

My results to How Will You Change The World test:

You'll create change as an Activist

Your philosophy? Make it happen! With your big heart and willingness to take initiative, it should be no surprise that you’ll change the world through your direct actions. While others might be more content working behind the scenes, a direct go-getter like you is more fulfilled by working on the front lines.

Willing to roll up your sleeves and get the job done, you know the world won’t wait for others. Whether you’re volunteering at a soup kitchen in your own backyard, or joining the Peace Corps to learn from and help others in developing countries, chances are, you know every individual can help make big change.

Feel ko barbero yung test. But still... This is actually a big dream of mine. To change the world. And not just in my "own little way". I want to do it big time. Actually it's not for the prestige, although it would be nice to get famous haha, but there are just a lot of injustice going on in this world and I would like to die knowing that I did something that really helped a lot of people. It just breaks my heart to see people living in the streets. It makes me cry to see old people begging for our loose change. The world often seems so unfair it makes me so mad and so sad at the same time. People who have done nothing but make themselves richer, sometimes even at the expense of other people, just living in those big houses, living luxuriously and eating 10x a day while there are just so many out there starving. Argh. And the sad part is, I don't have the guts to do anything about it. Oh yes I can do something about it if I really wanted to do, like all the people who made a difference by starting out with the will to do something, but I still haven't. I know the power of sheer willpower is very strong. It changes lives. So I hope I can rise above myself and start doing something. In the meantime, practicing preferential option on a personal level would do me a lot of good. You know how sometimes the easiest things tend to be the hardest ones to do?

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good friends are priceless

We have just been through a scathing today. Okay, kelangan ko nga palang manalog. Ngayong araw kasi ang pag-uulat namin sa Pagmamatiyag ng Kalikasan (Environmental Monitoring). Bawat pangkat ay mag uulat ng mga resulta ng mga eksperimentong isinagawa sa buong tag-init (summer).

At mukhang hindi nagustuhan ng aming guro ang kinalabasan ng mga pag uulat. Nakakadiri (disgusting) daw. Ngunit gayunpaman (tama ba 'to), hindi ako masyadong nalungkot. Marahil dahil gusto ko nalang matapos ang mga kailangang gawin.

Pagkatapos nga ng klase, sa kabila ng hindi nakakatuwang pangayayri, masaya pa rin ako. Kasi nagtatawan kami ng mga kaibigan ko habang tinatapos namin ang dapat ipasang papel (paper) na kaakibat ng pag uulat. Nagbibiruan kami at naghihiritan hanggang sa sasakyan ni Bennet (hi bennet! salamat sa pagpapasabay). At alam kong alam ng lahat kung ano ang pakiramdam kapag nakikipagbiruan ka sa mga kaibigan mo, kahit tungkol sa mga walang kwentang bagay. It's a warm, fuzzy, comforting feeling, and your face feels like it can put that smile on for hours without ever tiring a muscle. Di ko na kaya, haha.

So to very brilliant friends who are going to save the world with me (blob!), hug!!! Haha. Thanks for everything. Mwah, mwah.

PS. Pwde palang mag upload ng pic sa entry. haha. Just learned this today.